i meant to tell you that while i was off chasing visions
i really couldn't see.
all that was there was dark hidden with silver specks
and they moved too fast for me to catch them in jars
like fireflies masquerading around the tree.

i meant to tell you that i was afraid
but i never got around to it.
i was too busy watching the smoke dance in the hazy sunset
to notice that you were listening.

i meant to tell you what i saw...
in five years, ten, and twenty...
but i couldn't get the words out beyond,
"i see... [silence]."

i see ashes and i see lies
i see salvation in the moon's tired eyes.
and i see letters but i don't see the words
do you see this broken girl?

i see sparklers in our hands as we sit on the dock
with our feet in the water
watching the tiny bits of explosives ignite into stars
that we will only see for seconds at most
before they dance and retreat into the depth.

i see diamonds in our eyes as we share our last cigarette...
and then we'll go on like nothing yet...
just smoke and light, my last regret.